First Week of School

In my head I had a vision of perfectly smooth lessons. A big sister would occupy the little sisters while I would give a lesson. There would not be any fighting or distractions. I set my hopes and dreams way to high.

Not only did this vision not come true but it was no where close. First the husband took a week off. I know that he needed this break from work but did it have to be the first week of school. He wants to be involved in their education (I am so grateful for this), but he was throwing my groove off.  Not that my groove was great to begin with. I have not even finished all the lesson plans. 

The hardest part this year is we have moved from unschooling to Waldorf.  There is so much that I have to learn, while at the same teaching them. I feel like I am walking in fog right now.  I know that we will figure this out. I just wish that I could figure this out faster.

On a good note, we started a new Waldorf Co-op today. It is completely different then the homeschool co-ops we have done in the past. I really like it. It is so much more in line with what I want for the girls. We meet at different parks in the area, yep even on this very hot and humid day. There is nature and movement and song and so much happiness. I am so excited about this.

Tomorrow we are going to the Art Museum. Hopefully the girls can look at art while I sit quietly and finish some lesson plans while surrounded by beautiful pieces of art.

I have to come first

"In the case of an emergency, please put your mask on first, then assist other." Something along these lines are said on every flight I have been on. They are also true in your day to day life.

Children will suck the life right out of you. They don't mean too. They are tiny humans, humans that need their parents for everything. Physically, mentally, emotionally and so much more. It is a taxing job, being a mother.

My girls need me differently then they need there dad. I know this. I'm okay with this but that doesn't make the feeling of being constantly needed any easier. I have to care for them, but who has to care for me.

I have to care for me. While my husband really tries to care for me, he can't make the noise and touching go away. I can't either, but what I can do is remeber to care for myseld a little each day.

Self care is not something I am good at. Especially when I'm overwhelmed or stressed. I have to constanly remind myself that I need me time. As a wife and mother it is hard to sometimes find time for me. This means I have to set aside, not find, I have to plan time for me.

One of the biggest changes I have made to have time alone is to go grocery shopping (almost) alone. (The baby still will go with me for a few more months.) It has een wonderful and quiet. During the week I have to plan at least a few minutes to was my face or drink hot coffee or read a book by myself.

This past week I got to use a face mask and went to coffee with some lady friends of mine. It was amazing.

This week I plan to finish reading my book, drink hot coffee three times and take a hot bath.

Have a wonderful week
Lepeka

Hello World

Hello,

Who am I? Well, I’m still trying to figure that out.
I can list facts about myself: where I was born, when
I got married, or list my hobbies (which I really
don’t have any). There are many things that I feel
strongly about or that are a big part of my life.

Some things that are part of my life that make my who
I am. The biggest one is my faith. Everything that
I do stems form that: natural living, organic eating,
breastfeeding, babywearing, homeschooling, etc.

There are many things that I am currently working on.
Too many for me to wrap my brain around on most days.
Lets see

• I am read through the Bible in a year
• Reading all that I can get my hands on about
  Waldorf Education.
• Reading books to work on becoming a La Leche
  League Leader.
• Branch my natural living to include Essential Oils.
• Creating a new family budget and sticking to it.
• Learning new and different way to wear my baby with
  my woven wraps.
• Learning more about ADHD and ways to help my daughter.
• Figuring out more about my INFJ so that I can be
  happy with who I am.

I will talk about all of these things and more. I am
also always willing to learn so if you have something
to shared I will listen.

Welcome to my world. Blessed with Pigtails.

Lepeka